I give up
Making this blog site was supposed to be easy and fun and inspiring. It’s NOT!
I spent 3 hours messing around with things and this is how far I’ve gotten. Not counting all the time getting started with everything.
So I’m just taking it from here. This is just a space to write away and let it be seen by strangers.
July 3rd, 2026 –
I don’t know what to say, or what my goal is. I’m bored and this is a way to be creative and express myself to an audience and stay anonymous. I started with a lot of passion and I’m losing it quickly. This is not a site to market things or go the traditional route. It’s a space to be free and write (type) as I’m on a computer and get things off my chest/out of my head. So we’ll see where it goes.
July 29th 2026 –
I felt very heavy and sad last night. Sometimes I find something out about cats and then realize I never did that with mine and it makes me sad. I miss them, I miss their love and I wish I had more chances with them to show them stability and patience that I didn’t have before. I still have sadness though, rumination that lingers and I’m working on not letting that take a hold of me. I got up really early this morning to write this and I like having time in the morning to reflect and wake up slowly. I keep a lot of things inside and this site is my way to let it all out. To release all that pressure and sadness. The lesson is to let things go and that can be so hard at times. I just watched a sweet movie, Remarkably Bright Creatures and the lesson of the movie was that in life we must learn to let go of all things. It’s hard when your mind keeps reminding you of pain and struggles. I am grateful though, I’m grateful that I have so much time and less stress than I ever did before. I’m glad I have peace and comfort. I didn’t realize I would be so happy just being alone and in a quiet space. I really am a person who needs plenty of time to process and not rush. It’s where I’m at my best.